Where Bitterness Is Broken & Forgiveness Is Found

BY CLARA SANDERS



"Worthy"

he does not deserve you

he did not deserve you

but there’s a thick sheet over his eyes

he’d be blinded by your light

if he only took the time to see it

but he chose to remain in the dark

unaware, without a spark

of life or love or gratefulness

too unstable, oh his life’s a mess

it’s not your fault he doesn’t see you

he did this to himself

you are worthy and valid and oh so loved

by your momma, your daddy, your father up above

so when you start to retreat to that island of sorrow

remember keep your head up

there’s joy in tomorrow

for your worth is not in anything of this world

you should know that you are cherished and loved and adored

by the Maker of heaven Himself

and what’s more?

He isn’t judgmental or critical or vain

He’s not like the others

you’re saved by His stain

He won’t overlook you

He won’t knock you down

He hates when you cry

He won’t let you drown

in your ocean of fear and regret and self-hate

He calls you His child

and it’s never too late

to look up and realize that you are worth more

you're called to a purpose

there’s so much in store

don’t let that boy hurt you

don’t let that girl tease

cry out to your savior

and fall on your knees

have mercy, forgiveness

be kind for no reason

be thankful and rest

it’s only a season

in life there are many

don’t ever forget

you’ve got more to accomplish

He’s not through with you yet

so when you come across another

and their eyes are wide shut

take time, settle down, be kind, but for what?

well they are just like you

longing for something more

they are scattered and burdened and possibly confused

they may know your savior but they’re too scared to try

to just calm down, relax, put their pride to the side

learn to be gentle

speak kindness and love

speak as your father is watching above

be patient, forgive, it’s the least you can do

for those mean boys and mean girls

know not what they do.


I want to start by saying, my intentions when starting this piece were not to take such a drastic turn from sadness and bitterness to joy and forgiveness.


Without going into detail, I can say that there have been times in my life where I have harbored bitterness. Recently this has happened.


I began this poem because the thoughts in my head were running wild with pain and anger. I decided to write down some thoughts, because I thought it might help. However, in the midst of my writing, my thoughts and words began to change.


I did not make a conscious decision to take a different route, but it turned out for the better. The spirit within me was able to look past my current situation and prompt me to be more kind and more gracious, forgiving others as well as myself.


I have a bad tendency to dwell on the negatives. This is something I still struggle with, but I’m working on it. (side note: it is perfectly okay to struggle, to have bad days, even bad months or bad years. Don’t beat yourself up about it AND don’t let other people beat you up about it or make you feel like you’re not good enough or that you’re behind the curve. This may be a topic of further discussion in a future blog :)... )


But anyway, in the midst of writing this poem, I think the spirit literally started to draw me out of that dark place and into the light. Like I said, I started out with bitterness, ended with forgiveness. And that is NOT at all the nature of humanity, which leads me to conclude that divine intervention is very real.


This entire message is just as much of an encouragement and lesson to me as it is to you. I like to think that the Holy Spirit intervenes for us and speaks up for us sometimes. In fact, I believe it’s Biblical that this does actually happen. Hold on, lemme check...


Okay YES, here it is: Romans 8:26-27 says, “In the same way, the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us through wordless groans. And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for God’s people in accordance with the will of God.”



The spirit speaks on our behalf. This is a real thing. And I think it just happened to me.

Now, on the topic of my poem itself, I think it’s pretty self explanatory. Be kind. Be gracious. Show love and mercy. Know that your worth does not lie in the hands of mere mortals but in the hands of an all-knowing God who loves you UNCONDITIONALLY and without a cause.



MEET THE WRITER


Tupelo-native Clara Sanders is pursuing a degree in Food Science as a junior at Mississippi State University. She enjoys cooking, painting, reading, and exploring human behavior and psychology.

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